You make me think and I like that

She cuddles in my lap, not as small as she once was. I love the feel of her warmth and the  soft breathing that means she's asleep.  I know you aren't suppose to have a favorite, but she is mine. She puts her head on feet when I get ready and she gets mad when I leave the room. The little one hid under the chair everytime David and I fought and looked for me when she thought it was over.  She kissed my face when I was coated in salty tears and barks at me if I dare to stop scratching her tummy before she's ready for me to stop. She has more compassion and empathy than I ever thought possible.

The things we don't regret

Almost home. It only took me 12 hours of travel. One of my flights got cancelled. I honestly only want to go home for my pups, I miss them. I had a blast at the sales meeting, hard core r&d and sales bonding. I may have had the best nights after the corporate Christmas party. Highlights: my boss rocking an 'I ❤️ Intercourse (Pennsylvania)' shirt while bar hopping. Yes I did stupid things, even now I cringe at the thought of dancing with one of the 50 something sales guys while he called me hot. Mind you I won't dance unless I'm drunk to begin with. I know better usually.  

Our company president was raving at all our work and I for once forgot about David. 

And this is Kate, she may be my favorite food scientist counterpart, we always have fun together. 

I'm still here, short updates

So there's lots of chaos in my life, I know everyone has problems. However, I think I have come to expect it; and that isn't a good place to be.

I'm still at my job, but they fought hard to keep me and for that I am appreciative and now well compensated. My former work BFF has been on my mind today after a vivid dream like I haven't had in years. I woke up and couldn't get it out of my mind. You see we haven't spoken in months, probably 6 months. He met a girl, she got pregnant, he no longer talks to ANY of his friends. So I had written him off. Let others make their choices. But friends sometimes are hard to let go of, not for any other reason than at one point he was very close to me. I cried on his shoulder and debated the world with him. Few people look so deeply at my thoughts as Josh did. And I miss that in my life.

Since I have become very close to a newer person at work and the whole environment in management has become a more nutruting place. 

My love life is a disaster at its best. But I have been trying to live my life without anyone else.

I started doing dance classes, my favorite to date is aerial silks, straight up cirque du soleil stuff. I recommend it to anyone. Look for classes because it's like flying, well I'm new to it so it's kinda like playing in a fabric tire swing.

I leave for Pennsylvania tomorrow and well I do like being free to travel. 

I hope you all are well.