How far we've come...
"You're better off alone than being with the wrong person."
I look back at letters and pictures, I'm nostalgic today.
I've been cleaning out my storage and I found the trapping of all the relationships I've let go of...and the one I chose to save, again and again. Those feelings that felt so strong at the time... So different in retrospect.
I grew up...I out grew you, not malicious, not in hurt, I outgrew who I was when I was with you once upon a time. I didn't grow with you, I grew seperate. I look back and I see a little girl with you. Her face familiar but its not who I look at in the mirror.
Maybe that's why you keep calling, maybe that's why you want to try, I finally grew up.
Marry me they have said, and with each one... I feel alone... And suddenly I see there's decisions to make.... How much of this is my fault... Settle down I think.... Settle I think... 
Sara... I know that feeling... I stuck around for something that ended up being lies ... I feel like I can see myself too and how naive I was believing that 'he' was as honest and real as he portrayed himself... 'he' was not, he lied... yet I waited for him...
ReplyDeletei've always been awful at making decisions, indecisive is what they call it i suppose. how are we to know which is the right one?
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