I'm still here, short updates

So there's lots of chaos in my life, I know everyone has problems. However, I think I have come to expect it; and that isn't a good place to be.

I'm still at my job, but they fought hard to keep me and for that I am appreciative and now well compensated. My former work BFF has been on my mind today after a vivid dream like I haven't had in years. I woke up and couldn't get it out of my mind. You see we haven't spoken in months, probably 6 months. He met a girl, she got pregnant, he no longer talks to ANY of his friends. So I had written him off. Let others make their choices. But friends sometimes are hard to let go of, not for any other reason than at one point he was very close to me. I cried on his shoulder and debated the world with him. Few people look so deeply at my thoughts as Josh did. And I miss that in my life.

Since I have become very close to a newer person at work and the whole environment in management has become a more nutruting place. 

My love life is a disaster at its best. But I have been trying to live my life without anyone else.

I started doing dance classes, my favorite to date is aerial silks, straight up cirque du soleil stuff. I recommend it to anyone. Look for classes because it's like flying, well I'm new to it so it's kinda like playing in a fabric tire swing.

I leave for Pennsylvania tomorrow and well I do like being free to travel. 

I hope you all are well.

Speak ever so softly

Entangled in him

I want to stay here forever. 

Lost in our laughs, we escape reality of the harshness of life. 

Here in this moment we lie to ourselves for a bit longer, 

But what a wonderfully warm lie to devote my prayers too. 

What terribly sweet lyrics your songs creates, songs not devoted to our heartbreak. 

I can feel your whispers still across my skin; as if playing with my hair and tickling my fanciful mind. 

The rush of promise I've been screaming to find. 

Words with power

I've been spending a lot of time with books; submersed in the written goodness of happy endings and fairy tale stories. Sometimes it's nice to just read and forget the world, I think it's the approaching fall, this time of year just leaves me wanting warm soup, books and blankets. I'm a bookworm by heart, well it's in the top 5, with cooking, sleeping, movie watching, and driving. All the things that are effortless to me. 

My father use to say that life would pass me by, that I was escaping reality; I just think I love stories with new ideas to grasp on to. 

I've been absent from here, and on occasion it's nice and healthy to step away. However I've missed it, and I could recap my life change, but let's just say I'm different in a good way. I hope you all are well out there who are listening. 

The world keeps spinning

What is wrong with this world?! I have been trying to stay away from angry posts but I'm so exhausted I don't care. I sent a text to a friend I hadn't talked to in three months. His name came up today and well I wondered how he was. So my text said, "hey stranger?" I got an angry text back from his pregnant fiancée. Saying well... Get lost.... Ok so I try to curb her anger, explaining myself, how i know him, I mean no harm, congratulations, I wish you the best of luck. I get back...., never contact him again, F off basically." So I sent, I understand and left it there. This isn't the first time disgruntled girls have sent me texts, calls whatever... It's not the second.... Heck it's not the third.... 

I lose more friends to angry girls or friends that hit on me. Now clearly this girl doesn't know me from plain Jane.... At least I don't know how she would. So are all girls like this? If not what am I doing to cause this? I'm actually pretty hurt that this girl would feel so threatened or hate me for no reason. 

On a happy note. I ran my 10k and I jumped off a 50 ft cliff I feel good about being old if I can still feel so young. 

Dirty Thirty

Thursdays my birthday. I'm not enthusiastic at all. Today I went cliff diving, got a job offer from another company which would ensure a large salary increase, but a difficult next few months, can't say for sure if I will take it. Tomorrow I head home. Work hard. Play hard. Work harder. 

Friday, I join some friends and head to Disneyland to celebrate. I'm taking David and the furry kids.... Here's to trying to feel as young as I look...

And act. 

From last night, a friend took us to Mauna Kea. Very high, cold, and lovely. You can see we were above the clouds. 

If you didn't already know, Hawaii is my personal haven. If I ever run away from life, I'm heading here. Vacation pictures.

Gromit? Pedro? still unnamed....

Hello,

My name is Sara and I have a problem. 

We got another puppy! I know I know, I draw the line at three dogs. Considering my oldest is seven and my puppy just turned two, now isn't a bad time to raise another fuzzy. 

We haven't figured out a name yet, but he likes to climb, and looks like a bear. 

Let's hope this one isn't a crazy spaz or destroyer of things. *crosses fingers*